5 April 2016

Assalamua'laikum

5 April 2016. Antara tarikh yang bakal sentiasa tersemat dalam kepalaku forever.

It was the day Kaisara A'isya turned 4. It was Ayah last day of work coz the very next day Ayah will turn 60. And it was the day we loss our beloved grandmother forever. Nenek. Al-Fatihah.

Nenek was a very hardworking person. A very nice lady and very friendly.

She has a small runcit area at the back of her house. She babysit the siblings for a family. The eldest has the same age of mine. In fact we're in the same classroom back then.

Last time, Nenek also got some commission by selling gold.
Nenek amik upah jahit curtain and baju jugak. And she did take order for her best acar buah. Everyone loves it.

Dulu-dulu Nenek ada bela all types of animals. Ada helang, owl, goose, ayam, kambing, musang buah, burung puyuh, arnab and banyak lagi. We will have our breakfast fresh like eggs.

And Nenek suka bertanam. Pokok rambutan, jambu, and a lot more. Can't remember coz it was long long ago. All the hasil nenek akan bawak and letak dekat pasar. Sometimes she brought me along.

Exactly depan rumah Nenek was my primary school. In fact Ayah's primary school as well.
So, from standar 4 till standard 6 I stayed back after school at her house and went home with a school bus together with my little brother.
She pampered me so well with food. She will only cook my favorite dish. Whenever we ate terubuk or any sort of banyak tulang nye dish, she will sit beside me, wearing her glass, separate the fillet from the bone and pass it to me. I was so pampered that I gain 10kg each year for the three years spent at nenek's..hehe

Oh ya, Nenek called me Adik. Same goes to Atuk. But after mama passed in 1999 (Atuk 1998), Nenek no longer calling me Adik but Shuda instead. At first it did feel awkward but eventually I got use to it.

Nenek knew well my MIL as EH house like dua lorong away from rumah Nenek. They're neighbours.  Thus, whenever balik kampung EH, she will come at MIL's.

When I delivered my first baby, Nenek stayed besides me all the time until I went back home. She always pampered me. With jewelry, cloth, food..everything...and her indefinite LOVE.

She remembered all of our birthdays. She was married when she turned 16. Deliver her first child at 18. So she has 3 children (Ayah is the eldest), 14 grandsons/daughters, 14 greatgrandsons/daughters. And she will call to wish for everyone's birthday.

And mine was her last wish before she passed away. She called me on 8th Mar 16 and apologies not to call sooner. That was the last time I spoke to Nenek. And I believe, on 5th April itself, Nenek will call to wish her granddaughter like she always did. But she was sent to the hospital aerly in the morning of the day. And passed at 4.30pm on the very same day. Nenek di kebumikan bersebelahan kubur Mama, dan berdekatan kubur Atuk. Cantik aturan Allah.

Semoga Allah sentiasa merahmati Nenek. Shuda sayang nenek sangat2. Shuda minta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki andai ada salah dan silap selama ini. Shuda sedih sangat2 sebab masa balik kampung February 16, since malam tu dah salam2 nenek, pagi tu Shuda terus ke rumah ayah tanpa singgah rumah nenek. Nenek telefon tanya dekat mana. Shuda dah sampai highway. Nenek cakap nenek tunggu jugak tadi sebab nak pass telekung Kaisara. Shuda minta maaf kat Nenek and minta nenek simpankan InsyaAllah balik raya nanti. Tapi Allah lebih sayangkan Nenek. 27 Jamadilakhir 1437H Allah jemput dulu nenek. Belum sempat Shuda amik telekung dari Nenek. Semalam ayah wassap. Ayah cakap Ayah jumpa telekung Kaisara. Ayah minta address untuk poskan. Shuda cakap takpe. InsyaAllah hujung bulan ni Shuda balik. Terkilan memang terkilan. Tapi Allah Maha Menyusun.

Buat Nenek, Terima Kasih atas segalanya. Shuda do'akan Nenek bebas dari fitnah kubur dan InsyaAllah Allah pertemukan semula kita semua bersama Mama, Atuk di JannahNya yang abadi.
Aminnn...